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How was your week? And your Week-ends? How is your LIFE. Tell me everything!

Language issues
-Désolé pour l'inpersonnel anglais mes amis francophones, mais c'est une néccessité dans un monde multi-culturel actuel! Un effort pour lire mes pensés. Aussi j'espère engager des échanges dans ma langue maternelle.
-Disculpe para usar inglês meus amigos brasilieiros, mais uma nessecidade no mundo actual. Em efforço! Para leer meu coração. http://babelfish.altavista.com/


Generality
 I slim down the list of people I'm sending news to. I decide to not show to who I'm sending too also, avoid the 'I want to impress with number of people I know' effect. I believe in long-term friendship, and I want to work on it with you! I was blocked for a long time with this issue of pleasing everyone and finally decide to liberate me for the pressure I imposed myself in doing this. I wish we start exchanging one-on-one, and I use spam mail for general information, when I feel that I miss you. To all the incredible trainees I've meet and this community of supporting each other in this intense phase of our life, hopefully for life, to long freinds, in Canada, Family, Brazilian who push me foward, for the future. Worth to try.

I realise there was a lot of artificial perceptions I had, my unsconsious talk to me and I finally listen to it, open my heart to the real things in life. My most precious treasure is not all those photos, all those langagues, materials things, travalling most were escape from real facts I have developed over the years. Now I will filter and re-question everything I do and I thing, I hope you can help me with those life-long struggles.

A bit of raw news, I just returned from SP, certainly a breakpoint of my young life, change in a big way. I did so intense psychological workshop in a beautiful house isolate in a resort for Paulista to escape from the 20-millions metropolis 70 km north. An invitation from Marcelo who spark my heart in the Aiesec conference last May. We connect in a deep level, with Tao too and he refer us to a great psychologue. Her is Adelia, she's been studying psychology for all her life, 14 years at the university, international conference on science and spirituality and gave FREELY a workshop each month in HER house meet to light-up good people and give them tools to find inner-loveand sleep at the MC, meet great people as Rodriguo from Artemisia, Piret and Triinu from Estonia and participate in a Artemisia jury. Tao (chinese trainee Gemmer from conade) and I saw all the process and close view of this great NGO!!! Could it by my role on this planet? I am willing to look more into it:)

Tao and I want to create an NGO, organisation or something together, we have the same vision and are looking to strenghen our relation, seek support and accumulate knowlege. Back in Canada, I'll need a lot of energie and be sure what I want in life, some help from Canadian's fellow maybe;) ( Rita, Susan, Jen, Jean-Nic). I pass throught a rought pass returning for this exhausting week-end, wake up early, self-discovery session, lot of portuguese and important people that could change my life etc... How do you realise you are passionate about what you do??? Exiting road of life.

Schedule:
I'll stay in my little city Caxias tonight, maybe some poker, some reading, I'm usually travelling around all the time, maybe Gramado sathurday for a Int. Film Festival, with a dutch trainne Leo tomorrow but not sure. Try to love more this city before leaving that I never stop and try too, a way be happy with itself is not to base our well-being on accessory things, but ourself! I thing a lot and realise that I was fleeing to confront my behaviors and find a solution. Start painting Sunday with Juliana, picasso is coming haha.

Some project like a canyon in Cambara (photo de Marie), more beaches as I can,

I have great plans coming up! My brother Alex is coming in end of November, 1 week around Floripa then Nordeste with Rodriguo, friend of the family haha. It is gonna be an incredible moment to finally share a family passion that I know I have been discarting for so long, family is a friend you have for life... How could I not see that? It will be a week to remember, on the most beautiful beaches of Brazil and the world.

After Brazil:
My contract finish the 15th of December, in ONLY 4 months.... Kind of late to realise all those things, but I knew that my experience would had a good impact in my life. Changing environment doesn't mean it change my person, hide the dark side of myself, and I feel I will reconinze the essence of them and work on them all my life to become a better, more complete person, hope you will be able to see the differencealfter CONAL (National Conference), when my internship will finish. I will stay 1 month on the 3000 km beach strip;) Passing Chrismas with my best-friend Rodriguo's family. Then jump in the amazonian boat to Peru, New Year's Eve with another best friend in Peru, hopefully if she's still there, Patricia. Visit Macchu Picchu, Titicaca, Nasca's lines, pyramids in Equador, caraïbe's beaches of Venezuela, my long-last kid dream :D

Then I'm looking for a Education Traineeship in Columbia also, I've been in long talk with Sebatian, Aleja and other great columbian people. I think the perfect social experience as just open to me :D The project start in September, 25 deleguate, 15 from abroad, starting by 2 weeks of cultural presentation and team workshops in Bogota, 15 weeks of working and developping a Network of NGOs focus on displace Columbian, who have one of the highest rate in the world. Whitout saying I feld in love with Columbia, the people, passion, music, way of life, spanish, culture, Andes etc... I'm really sure of that choice :D  I'm waiting for the second wave in January, lobying to promote this valorous project.  See the powerpoint for more details.

Closing

That about it...thank a lot for ready this and being part of this list of great people... I hope I made a good choice to open up my heart to you, I'm sure I did.

I really miss you all, I wish we can share more, you really helped me so much and I want to continue this fruitful relation, without boundaries.

Special thanks to Diane for the support when I need the most Tuesday, Phil T. for being you, Carlos my friend and work colleague/guide, my sweet Camila who moved me,my family who gave me roots to grow, and Jesus inside me. Could have been any of you.

Love to you all, good people that I care about.